Monday, February 4, 2013

Getting through the hard times :(

I have not exactly been my usually cheery self this week. I've got two more med school rejections and it was kind of like someone knocked the wind out of me. It hurt :( It hurt like ****. I have probably spent more time crying this week then running. It's ok I'll be fine... I'm only 21 with my whole life ahead of me. My grades are stellar so what's missing is life experience. Trust me there're a lot of people much older then me applying! I'm still waiting for a reply from University of Toronto but even if I get an interview it's like a 1 in 3 chance that I'll actually make the cut. So it's been all plan B for me this week.

Well I submitted all my graduate school applications during the week and then on Saturday found out that one of my referee's letters wasn't received. It was passed due date and I panicked and I cried. Not cool Nadiya, not cool! I had a friend coming over so I composed myself and e-mailed the prof. He sent me proof that he submitted everything and said he'll follow up. I guess the system was just backed up with a lot of files being uploaded or something. Aah! Why did I over react!

What I am truly thankful for is Hot Yoga. I've gone 3 times this week and it really helped my mood. It put me back on my feet, it helped me go back to the lab the next day, it helped me sleep and all that jazz. I'm sure running would've had the same effect but I was actually able to attend the yoga classes so I took advantage of it. 

Exercise is truly amazing. It heals you- body, mind, spirit! I'm pretty sure a lot of other pre-meds would just go and get drunk if they were in my position. Who knows they could do something even worse! However, I feel rejuvenated after exercise and I get health benefits from it ;) Yeah! Much better way to cope then getting wasted. It's called getting wasted for a reason- waste of time, brain cells, liver cells...
Yeah... I didn't run much this week.
The other thing I'm thankful for is just how much my running has improved (yoga too!). About 8 months ago going at 6mph was a comfortable pace for me, now it's 6.8mph. Yeah! Funny how a 27 minute 5km run used to be a tempo run for me, now it doesn't feel hard. Also, Sunday I ran my first 99% calf pain free barefoot 5km run. I see great improvements in my future!

As for now, just keep swimming running, just keep swimming running. 
See, I'm still smiling sort off... 

How do you guys cope with stress?
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  1. oh noooo, I'm sorry about the tough week. Hang in there, hang in there!! You ARE super, super young still, and still waiting. It's tough competition.
    I'm glad you found your way with yoga and it really helped you. Exercise is an AMAZING release to help calm down and deal with stress. Talking it out can help a lot of people too. :)
    Thinking of you!!

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    1. Thanx :) Talking is very helpful and was one of the reasons I moved back home this year. No matter what I always have family supporting me through the "difficult" times

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear about the grad schools. They don't know what they're missing! You're totally right, though, how breaking a sweat can really help to calm the nerves and help us refocus. Hang in there! And keep up your "om". :)

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    1. Thanx Michelle! The past week or so has been an emotional rollercoaster and exercise definitely helps me stay centered.

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  3. :( I'm so sorry Nadiya. Too bad about it. I wish I could help you in some way!!! I agree with Amera, talking it out helps, if you ever need to talk, you know where to find me!
    *Keep the faith*

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  4. I have no doubt you'll be an amazing doctor one day and the right school will accept you with open arms. You seem to be on the right path and you have so much support! You'll get there! *HUGS*

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    1. Haha how ironic that I actually got the interview for Toronto Med today! Maybe it's the sign from the university that it's the right school for me...

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  5. Not well unfortunately, that is why I keep my life pretty simple. But with kids is life ever simple? Anyway I find that prayer and also exercise absolutely helps, I feel so strong after a run.

    You will be in my thoughts as you are going through this process, I hope it all works out for the best! Take care and stay strong. Nice, fresh blog design :)

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    1. Glad you like the blog design :) The old one was cool but some features were missing :(

      Yes, prayer and meditation very much help! Thanx for the support :D

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  6. I exercise, to be sure-but I've had a problem with overdoing that so I have to be careful. I play in the kitchen, too. Cooking is me-time. A glass of wine is a nice way to relax too, unlike the exercise I don't have a problem with that so its a nice indulgence.
    It's awesome you are making all the progress with the running and hot yoga! There's always a silver lining somewhere:)

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    1. Yes! Cooking therapy is actually very helpful :D There's a silver lining in everything, you just have to keep your mind open ;)

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  7. I'm so sorry to hear about the grad school applications :( It's SO competitive right now, it's amazing that anyone is able to do anything. The business world is kind of the same way - no one wants you until you have experience...but how do you get the experience if no one wants you?

    You're so smart for remembering that exercise is a huge de-stressor. It's the same way for me, but I always drag my feet to the gym when I'm stressed :-/

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